Tuesday, January 8, 2013

"God, will you show me your power today? I need to see you today"

The past few weeks have proven to be very hard on me, and my family. A small background (mainly so I'll remember) includes Zoe having the flu the week before Christmas. Me getting bronchitis and feeling bad the Sunday before Christmas. On Christmas morning, at 7:20 my mom calls telling me that my Mama Jane has suffered some sort of cardiac issue and the doctors say she won't live through the day. I rush to Nashville, spending the day with my family... in CCU with Mama Jane. Matt stays home with the kids to let them finish opening presents and then takes them to his parents house.  As they were about to leave to go to his Granny's house in Glasgow, they got a phone call that Granny had fallen and broken her ankle. She needed surgery to reset the bone, as it broke in two places. Meanwhile, Mama Jane is holding on. She is somewhat stable, yet about to die. Late Christmas afternoon, I go back home to Bowling Green, telling Mama Jane, "Good bye for now, I'll see you on the other side."  When I get back home, Matt tells me that he's not feeling well. He got the flu, too. Mama Jane hangs on. I'm in constant contact with my mom and brother about her condition. On Thursday, they decide to take her home with hospice care. I had not been able to visit again because Matt was sick and hated to leave my 'almost over the flu' daughter with anyone. And, I needed to go to the doctor myself. On Friday morning. I was feeling much better, as the meds had started to kick the bronchitis. Zoe was all better. Luke was fine too. An urgency like no other flooded my mind. I HAD to get to Nashville. Had to get there. I jumped in the shower and got ready in record speed. I brought Zoe and Luke with me.  I just felt it in my bones that I should go straight to Mama Jane's house. I arrived, got my kids out, and walked in.... I walked in and stood at her bed and saw her take her final breath. God sent that urgency feeling to me. She died Friday, at noon.
The visitation was Sunday. The funeral was Monday. Those days were tough on me as Mama Jane and I were close. We've spent a lot of time together and made lots of great memories. I'm thankful for that. (Did I mention that the Saturday before Christmas we had a family picture made with Mama Jane in it?? And, that day was her 88th birthday! December 22)
Fast forward to today, Monday. The weekend was rough on me for other reasons... but, mainly grieving for Mama Jane.  
Today I prayed, "God, please will you show me your power today?" I really needed and wanted to see God's hand in my life today. Not thirty minutes after praying that my friend, Susan, showed up on my doorstep with flowers and a card for me. She didn't know I had prayed that, of course. She just knew that I didn't show up for our moms prayer group this morning.
Then... later, another friend in that same prayer group, Nicole, brought dinner to my house. She, too, knew it was odd for me not to be there and felt like she wanted to do that for me and my family.
I tell you all this story (not for you to feel sorry for me) to tell you about how God uses our friends as special blessings in our lives. And, to tell you that He is mighty and powerful and all-knowing. Thank you God for reaching out to me today.  He gave me a peace that I wouldn't have had otherwise today.

4 comments:

Unknown said...

I'm so sorry you've had such a rough couple of weeks, and that you lost someone so dear to you. Hugs and prayers for you during such a sad time.

Carol said...

Ugh. Valerie. I didn't know about your grandmother. Haven't I been to her house? Gosh! So so sorry! Hope y'all are on the mend soon!

Carla said...

Valerie, I am so very sorry for everything that you and your family has been through. My heart just aches for you. I pray that everyone is feeling better and that there is comfort in your home at this time. Love you girl!!!

Deaton, party of 5 said...

Oh Valerie, I'm so sorry. I hadn't heard about Mama Jane until this weekend when Sarah told me. My heart breaks for you. What a rough patch you and your family had right around Christmas =(. I hope and pray this New Year will bring you lots of peace and lots of joy. I will certainly be praying that your heart feels God's comfort. Love you friend, let me know if you need anything!